It's been forever since I've been on here. I actually haven't been doing "bad" per se but not good either. While my tendon has been healing I've been able to do modified workouts which, until the last few days I've been really quite religiously following. Sadly Friday I had to take off b/c daycare closed and K got the stomach flu which she then passed to me Sunday night. It's now Tuesday and as I write this I'm counting down the hours until noon. I told myself a half day. Actually I hadn't planned on a half day but I feel like such a** that I don't think I can do more. Forget all the other "stuff" that weighs me down here.
Anyway, given that I haven't eaten anything of consequence since Sunday night and I've had maybe 40 oz of fluid (about 30 of which have been in the past 12 hours) I shouldn't be surprised I feel like this but I'm at that point where I'm irrationally fearing I'll never feel better again.
Meanwhile today is 9/1/15. It's a date of note b/c aside from the fact that pumpkin spiced everything comes out today it's the first day of a new month and the first day of a 21 fit challenge. My dear friend L and I are doing it together, except that I decided at some point last night that I'm not all in.
Hear me out here. I'm sticking with it b/c while I'm already working out but need motivation. That being said I'm trying to be reasonable knowing that I'm not going to be 100%. The diet piece is what has me perplexed. It's Paleo this, whole 30 that, 21 day fix here, detox there. Given that I know that food is where I struggle I'm about to lose my mind on all of this. And yet without some "rules" I feel like I'll really falter. Should I snack? Should I eat a bunch of small meals? OMG my brain.
And we are going on vacation next week (thank GOD) and frankly I don't want to start and "fail". So if I know I'm not going to be 100%, I wonder why am I doing it or am I making excuses?
Or maybe I just need sleep, you know b/c 20 hours in 24 hours wasn't enough.
